weight. i am unable to eat at this time. there is too much upset going on & im not able to force myself to eat. weigh in saturday, lookin fwd!!
i bought clothes instead!!! really hot shirts from express & aeropostale. some neat shit from hot topic, including 3pairs of leggins (tights w/out feet). i got a special water bra from victoria secret. wow! i said id never spend that much ona bra!. it was $50, a water bra, w/water inside so i look bigger. also got the cutlets shapers to go IN the bra to make me look major!!! the bra is so soft i see why gurls spend $$ on this shit. i also got a really pretty pair of shoes that have sneaker bottoms but pretty tops - from sketchers :-) & i bought a corduroy book bag that says Hollister on it!!! now how easy was it to spend $400 in 2 hourse :-O i felt like i must deserve this after suffering w/my weight for so long. ive just gone up another 1/2 lb, so im now 130.2, i want to scream & cry & rage!!!!! i need to download some evil metal rock so i can burn off this shitty feeling!! cept i dont have a downloader cuz they cause trojans etc. so no tunes for me. but im thinkin of one i like by mike patten from faith no more called, "little gurl".............luv it............pray for my success as i do for you. you gurls are my life-line! why the fuK am i gaining?????????????? ps the hoodia made me very sick & barfed twice friday, wicKed nice............now what
im now 129.6 & am NOT willing to be back in the 130's. if i starve i dont lose, if i nibble ev few hrs i fuKing gain. i am so over my body. i hate it!!! my daughter's on medifast & is gonna fly right by me in weight, biatch. no way do i have any desire to medifast my way. i have my ways of what i do. but they're not working. plz, if anyone has advice, im dying here. i CANt be 130 again, i'll die. whatever happened to fuKn 99 lbs???????????????? how the fuk am i ever gonna get close to that????????????????????????????????????
plz w/b, im dying inside.
thats 5 days of green tea & only a tiny amount of food. im doin it ALL over again starting NOW!!!! i know i'll never make my stg:120 by aug 21st but atleast im finally getting somewhere!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was stuck for soooooooooo long!!! couldnt get away from 134. im soooo thrilled to be in the 120's , yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am thrilled! i went to the dr to pick up my script & i stepped on the scale & i lost 2 lbs
since last week :-O wow! i guess it really DOES work!
thx 4 everyones support!
ps~ leaving to start my job in 10 minutes :-O
all i took in today was a few sips of coffee @ appr. 40 cali's. my green tea @ 75 cali's & 1/4 of a chicken sandwich from panera bread!
i have no idea how many cali's that was but i know it was less than 100 cali's. + a gift @ the grocery store of some veggie salad, tiny bowl, appro. 25 cali's.......for a grand daily total of:
240 calories, wow!!!!!!!
i hope everyone else did well today also, luv, aliana
yesterday was a success, dont know how many cali's but only 1/2 a sandwich from panera bread. i feel fuKn pissa!! thats day 2 of ruling supreme & the day before i had 260 cali's daily tally, amaZing!!!
so on that note i will wish EVERYONE a good day & night
luv you gurls, aliana
plz let me know. thx <3